breaking the news

when kady and i found out that a baby was on the way, we decided to wait until we were past our first trimester before we broke the news to our parents. not to be pessimistic about this pregnancy, but we just wanted to ensure that we were out of the "danger zone" before getting everyone excited at the thought of being grandparents, aunts, uncles, kuya's and so on....

least to say, that did not work.

in our excitement, we have shared the news to our family's last friday night as we visited them. now i guess, the ball got rolling and most of our extended family is aware that come sometime very early next year, the stork will be flying in to deliver a bouncing, healthy baby boy or girl on our doorstep.

on a side note to my little bee: hurry up and grow honey. everyone is getting impatient to meet you!

a first for everything

the hubby and i went to the mall to pick up a few items but ended up straying at the baby section at most stores we passed. i know, i know... it's quite early to do this type of shopping but who can resist the tiny little baby clothes screaming for you to buy them?!? i know i couldn't... this pregnancy has me completely... hook line and sinker!

so kady indulged me on this one. he let me have my very first baby shopping galore (on a budget) and of course, because we don't know the sex of the baby yet, we stuck to the neutral colours... yellows, creams and greens :)

here are the few things we picked up today!

a pregnant woman's lunch box

i have never been one to prepare lunch the night before. i usually wake up early enough to dig out the left-overs from the previous night, add some newly cooked rice, stuff it in a paper bag and call it lunch.

before i even realized i was pregnant, i would dismiss the 10am hunger pangs or down more coffee to put something in my system before the much-awaited 12:00 strikes. (side note to my baby bee: i'm sorry honey, mommy wasn't aware of you yet so i'll try to make-up for all the caffeine i've stuffed you with)

now that i'm pregnant, not only do i have to eat a little more often, but i have to be careful about what i eat as well. so for the very first time, tomorrow's lunch box has been prepped a good ten minutes ago.

exactly what is in it?

- 1 banana
- 2 oranges
- 2 slices of bread
- 1 small can of tuna (before you ask, it is allowed in small portions and i do need fish for protein)
- 16 small carrot sticks
- 1 small container of grapes
- 1 ham and cheese with lettuce wrap cut in half

that, my dearest friends, is my entire day's worth of sustenance. you probably think it's quite a bit but seriously, i get hungry at least six times from 8:30am to 5:00pm. my dinner, of course, is composed of more protein and a lot less carbs.

for the first time in my life, i really have to be aware of what i eat. i'm trying to stay away from the junk food (although i had twelve slices of yummy salt & vinegar chips) and trying to keep myself in line with the healthy stuff. but i swear i can always smell a fresh cup of coffee brewing in our office kitchen.

*sigh* this isn't forever. just for nine months..... just for nine months....

hi baby,

i don't know how old you are in there... all i know is that by now, you would be forming your heart, lungs, brain and all the rest of the vital organs you will need to be able to live a healthy life. it also says on all the materials i've been reading that if we go for an ultrasound now, we would be hearing your heartbeat right up against mine.

right now though, you're giving your mom a painful time. i'm always exhausted and wanting to take naps. and throughout the day, the feeling of wanting to throw up constantly overtakes me. i'm an emotional wreck... i catch myself smiling at the thought of you then later on, i catch myself tearing up because of you.

but don't worry, i have wanted you for so long and i can't wait until you start growing in me and i feel you kick up against my sides. i also can't wait for the day that daddy and i get to hold you in my arms.

right now, your dad thinks i'm "not-so-pregnant" yet. so you better hurry up and grow so that he can have physical proof that i do have a little life growing inside me. then maybe we can have him run for ice cream and bubble tea in the middle of the night, fight with him just because, and one day, it will hit him that he will have a mini-him and i will see the panic take over his face and when you are born, i will see total awe and love pour out of him.

ok, i'm crying again.

enough with this emotional roller coaster...

love,
mommy

oh no!

my state of excitement was totally tampered with by quite a few things when i realized that being pregnant is not-so-fun after all. for the past month, i have been experiencing symptoms of pregnancy but was not really able to pin-point exactly what i was feeling until yesterday of course, when it was confirmed that *baby bee* is on the way.

so exactly what was it that tampered with this high state of almost orgasmic pleasure at the thought of having a baby? here's my list:

1.) morning sickness --- lasting all throughout the day
2.) constipation --- seriously, need i say more?
3.) exhaustion
4.) wanting to take serious naps every couple of hours
5.) starvation. really, i just ate 40 minutees ago!

plus, let's not forget that i have to stay away from the following things:

1.) salmon
2.) tuna
3.) sushi
4.) caffeine
5.) pop
6.) junk food
7.) high heels!

can someone please get pregnant so you can sympathize with me and really mean it???

the life to be

i have taken a number of pregnancy tests over the years and all of them have always shown up as one blue negative line. due to the irregularity of my monthly little friend, i have come to accept that each one of those tests will turn out as negative each and every time until such a day comes that we really, truly and seriously decide that a little bundle of joy is what we want in our life.

so after two months without the annoying visitor knocking on my door, a girlfriend who has been bugging me to take the test finally dug in her words enough for me to purchase one.

it was 3:40 pm when i peed on that stick.

and exactly 40 seconds later, a negative line popped.... and there goes another line that crossed it.

WE ARE NOW PREGNANT.

i got the ball rolling and went to a drop-in clinic within the next 30 minutes just to double check... after all, those home tests are not 100% accurate. and yet again, it was pee in a cup. and the doctor confirmed that WE ARE DEFINITELY PREGNANT.

i drove back to work with tears in my eyes, knowing that a tiny little one is going to be relying on me for the next nine months to ensure that i take care of him... and imagine, having to be responsible for another life to ensure that he gets the best of everything....

i can't wait to be a mom.

and the clearblue test showed this..

+

and that, ladies and gents, is the beginning of it all!