the saddest goodbye

she's out of my life
she's out of my life
i don't know whether to laugh or cry
i don't know whether to live or die
and it cuts like a knife
she's out of my life

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after all this time, she truly is out of my life.

thank you for the closure and for the chance to let me say my piece.

most of all, thank you for the reply. though it was short and sweet, it meant more to me than you can ever imagine.

i wish you nothing but the best life has to offer.

caught on cam!

After his evening bath, I decided to video the little man in all his glory. Who would've thought that I was going to catch him answering to his nickname (given by his Ninong Jay) everytime I called him and who would've thought I would catch his very first actual crawl on it!!!

I was so thrilled to have it all on tape that I am up 40 minutes later trying to post it up online to show the whole world!

Enjoy the video!

a thud and a scream

To make a very long story short, the little man fell off our bed on Tuesday evening and we rushed him to the emergency room to ensure that his fall did not do any permanent damage.

At the hospital, he of course charmed the nurses and the doctor by smiling, giggling and screaming his little head off to get some attention.

And would you like to know what he did to his hospital tag???

This is the remainder of his tag.

Yes, thank you. Within a few seconds that the hubby and I were not paying attention to him, he has chewed his way through his tag and got ink and sticker all over his mouth. How I wish I had my camera then!!!

Least to say, the little one is all good! No bumps on the head, thank goodness!!!

the little boy who knew he could!

" I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. I know I can."
- The Little Engine That Could -

He's finally done it --- all by himself!!!

first swing

For the very first time, my 6.5 month old teething little love got on a swing and was "swung" away by daddy while the mommy snapped non-stop photos.

What a joy to it is to behold the peels of laughter from a little boy who is experiencing one of his many 'firsts' in life.

I can't wait to share a million more 'firsts' with him.

How true it is.....

Before I was a Mom -
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom -
I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life
so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

-Anonymous-

flashback

August 2004 @ Edmonton.

i heave and sigh

Yesterday, my mom mentioned how majestically huge my pride is that it encompasses too much when it needs to be deflated.

I didn't agree with her and got into a silly argument.

Tonight is one of those nights when I know she is right.

Don't you sometimes just hate it when your mother is right?

i heart me some of those kicks!

I'm not one of those mommies that dresses my son in cutie little baby blue overalls with pictures of dinosaurs and ducks and bears all over them (not that I'm saying there's anything wrong with that!). What I am is a mommy who loves to dress my son in uber cute stylin' clothes that matches him and daddy!

On our very recent trip to the states, I ended up getting my supahman 5 pairs of shoes that I will gladly parade in here once he gets 'em on those little longanisa feet of his!

Here's the first set :)

Are you prepared?

For some odd reason, I got to thinking of natural disasters and such this evening that I have come to do a little research on it.

I know most people are aware of the 72 hour emergency kits but really --- do you have one?

This isn't the time for me to 'consider' it anymore.
It's actually time for me to act on it.

After all, I have a tiny son to think of now and I wouldn't want to be in a middle of a calamity and have to struggle to put a backpack together with unecessary things.

So one of my projects for the next month???

An emergency kit for our car and for our home.

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For more info on how to get yourself started --- click this link.