pages of my life

in the process of clearing out our storage room

i opened a long-forgotten box filled with some of my childhood memorabilia.

letters from friends in elementary, birthday cards,
high school photos, dried flowers from prom...

each one triggered a memory of days gone by

that brought an instant smile to my face.

inside this big box, i found a smaller box.

hidden in its recess were journals... my journals

counting back from my very first, given by my mama and papa

for my 11th birthday.

it started with `dear diary...` 

and for years i kept on writing...
from tears to triumphs

friendships formed and loves lost

from writing about my day to ranting about a horrid event

these pages formed so much of my life

that i am able to see such a transformation from a little girl

to a grown woman.

my last journal ended in 2002, the year i met my hubby (go figure)

and i did take a break from writing.  

so much so that it took me years to get back again.

but this time, i blogged.
i opened my very first blog with xanga back in 2004
(which is now closed with it`s pages archived)
and my love of writing has resurfaced.

this current blog of mine has been opened since 2009
but prior to that, i have had other entries as far back as 2007
that i have wholeheartedly integrated into this site.

i have been asked multiple times why i blogged.
and why i would want to share so many details of my life
to people who are unknown to me.

my answer is always the same.
i blog for myself --- not for my readers
(though all of you are the delicious cherries on top!)

i blog for the love of writing.
i blog because i have two beautiful little boys and a loving husband
and i want to be able to jot down simple moments
that i will forever treasure with them.
i blog because it`s a reaffirmation of the life i live
and that i am so thankful for each of the blessings that come my way.
i blog when i need to vent, when i need to cry, when i need to laugh and just because.

at the end of this year, this blog will be printed in journal format.
i will add it to my collection of diaries
but this time, with the sole purpose that my little boys
will pull it out from their bookshelf and read of my love for them.

because that is the exact purpose of my blog.
it`s an open love letter to my two most precious little loves.


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