i am surprised at how fast time seems to be going. i only wish that it could slow down a tiny little bit so that i can enjoy more of his childhood --- remember each of his every expressions, engrave how tiny his hands and feet are in my mind and cherish all those firsts in his life... from smiles to babbles, grins and crocodile tears, his first crawl, first tooth, first owie, first step... every precious little moment that seems to be just slipping right through my fingers.
though i love him so much more now as a toddler, i do miss those days when he was a tiny little helpless baby. when all he wanted to do was cuddle and be held, rocked and sang to. i used to spend endless hours at night unable to sleep just looking at his face and thinking... "he's gorgeous and he is absolutely mine!" ... now i spend countless hours in the day missing him madly and looking forward to my evenings and weekends when i get to spend all my hours with him.... selfishly trying to keep him awake at most times to be able to do as much in so little time.
though he will forever be labelled a "baby" in my eyes, i still can't believe i now have a toddler in my arms.
Celebrating his very 1st birthday