i opened a long-forgotten box filled with some of my childhood memorabilia.
letters from friends in elementary, birthday cards,
high school photos, dried flowers from prom...
each one triggered a memory of days gone by
that brought an instant smile to my face.
inside this big box, i found a smaller box.
hidden in its recess were journals... my journals
counting back from my very first, given by my mama and papa
for my 11th birthday.
it started with `dear diary...`
and for years i kept on writing...
from tears to triumphs
friendships formed and loves lost
from writing about my day to ranting about a horrid event
these pages formed so much of my life
that i am able to see such a transformation from a little girl
to a grown woman.
my last journal ended in 2002, the year i met my hubby (go figure)
and i did take a break from writing.
so much so that it took me years to get back again.
but this time, i blogged.
i opened my very first blog with xanga back in 2004
(which is now closed with it`s pages archived)
and my love of writing has resurfaced.
this current blog of mine has been opened since 2009
but prior to that, i have had other entries as far back as 2007
that i have wholeheartedly integrated into this site.
i have been asked multiple times why i blogged.
and why i would want to share so many details of my life
to people who are unknown to me.
my answer is always the same. i blog for myself --- not for my readers
(though all of you are the delicious cherries on top!)
i blog for the love of writing.
i blog because i have two beautiful little boys and a loving husband
and i want to be able to jot down simple moments
that i will forever treasure with them.
i blog because it`s a reaffirmation of the life i live
and that i am so thankful for each of the blessings that come my way.
i blog when i need to vent, when i need to cry, when i need to laugh and just because.
at the end of this year, this blog will be printed in journal format.
i will add it to my collection of diaries
but this time, with the sole purpose that my little boys
will pull it out from their bookshelf and read of my love for them.
because that is the exact purpose of my blog. it`s an open love letter to my two most precious little loves.
yes, that's right.
my early morning start is just for kaelan.
while the little man is asleep
and the hubby is getting ready for work
kaelan gets up at about 5:30am (after 7+ hours of sleep)
and we settle in for a nice hour of baby and mommy time.
it's all about the feeding for the first half hour.
then it's all about the cooing, the tickling, the giggles and grinning
the laughing and kissing, the hugging and dancing
and all those gooey things us mommies do with little babies.
it's our very special time.
just him and i.
getting to know each other quite well.
while the rest of the world is probably still snoring the night away.